long long ago

an idea struck me

made me smile

gave me pride.

gave me wings

n i looked into the mirror.

that's all i did,

for i was busy

cherishing what i owned

and was lost

in myself.

i played with it

in my head:

how id blog about it,

add romance to it

in a lyrical style,

touch hearts, wet eyes,

connect,

bring myself a name and fame

to satiate my self.

me as i am,

i made myself open

to many more ideas.

visuals, feelings,

words, sounds,

tastes, perspectives,

name it and you have it.

the wide web welcomed me

an insect

but who willingly got trapped

in and sunk into

it all by itself.

then followed saturation

information all around,

me the observer.

too many people,

too much hunger,

convolutions, power politics,

religion, blindfolds,

opiated vents, skyscrappers,

palm islands, diamond mafia,

name it and you have it.

i couldn't even remember

that i had an idea

nor can i recollect what it was, now.

for there have been

many more like that since,

as i remain an observer

all unto myself.

the change

yes, that post i made 2 months ago holds some value now.

lethargy, lack of motivation, (misplaced?) sense of content(ment), distractions, and the rest in myself - that's old abhi for you.

and the new one? i din't say she's any different! (playing safe.) what value she now holds is because she's typing this down, now.

what made her do it? a lot of abstinence from work, a lack of sense of purpose, and the like, which obviously follow months of nothingness.. and add to that, love. yeah.

love

love..this may be an oft-discussed issue on this blog. love..something just struck me.

probably, the closest word to state an example of what all this about, is the very word, 'state'.

state and State. love and Love. similar properties, big difference.

here comes the change as i call it

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what i learnt today

24th june 09.

.bejesus/bejeezus: n. Slang Used as an intensive: The bear scared the bejesus out of us

. there's a lot of crap happening in the world. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gLBE5QAYXp8&feature=fvst

. UN offers an online volunteering programme. http://onlinevolunteering.org/en/org/resources/index.html

. i'm lazy, cynical and i've got to deal with it. also, life here at parents' place in blore is so different from barul,that village id been to. it was so much better there..no carbon footprint guilt. should do something to better this place.

vox populi

give your opinions, suggestions, comments, or anything about the following issues in the comments box :)

issue: indian elections, 2009. lok sabha as well as assembly.

issue: are men and women really innately that differently; or is socialization a major factor, so much that it's got into our genes? simply put, where do hormones and socialization (i call it social manipulation..just like we created 'castes' for hierarchical domination) stand, diverge and/or intersect?

issue: LTTE, sri lankan government.

musings

. i am a string of memories

. if i can't accept any man as he is and still love him, i don't mind ending up with a woman.  it's not about the sexuality alone. 

. abhigna: wats wrong with being a gay/lesbo?

i think gays (homosexuals) r the most self-respecting ppl

bhanu: oh shit!

abhigna: they know what they want

n they get it

bhanu: gays are freakin' GAY baa..!

abhigna: n those who r open abt it

think of it

trhose open abt it..

think of all that they r ready 2 undergo

for being themselves

for telling the world the truth abt themselves

bhanu: actually right baa!

abhigna: for being true 2 themselves

mayb

bhanu: that's a actually a point!

abhigna: i will end up with a woman

may b

bhanu: they are almost as great as saints and scientist!

abhigna: ive started 2 believe

bhanu: *s

abhigna: u kidding?

bhanu: ledhu baa

why wud I

i feel lke I'm convnced

abhigna: huff!!

i adore them in this world of lies, deceit n fake people

bhanu: mmm..!